Need to rant a bit....

I think I have mentioned my MIL before...I refer to her as "Annoying Grandma" because she has been SO irritating to me in regards to my son. She continues to push my buttons as the days and weeks go by- and I am getting to the point where I may say or do something I may regret...so I am venting here...

This woman is the biggest, pushiest, most annoying person I have ever known. Nothing I say or do regarding the baby is ok with her...she calls all of my parenting decisions into question....I am at the end of my rope here..ready to strangle her with it if she doesn't stop the incessant smothering.

She hates that I am nursing...she thinks I am "starving" the baby and he's not eating enough if it's only breast milk- I now supplement with formula, but she thinks he should be eating a lot more solid food ("I was feeding my kids at 3 months old with solid foods and they turned out ok!") I started the baby on rice cereal, and she questioned that... "Rice is so constipating, why don't you give him applesauce?" I tell her NO the Dr recommends no fruits until 7 months. "But applesauce shouldn't be a problem!" Again, NO he needs to get used to 1 type of food at a time, and no fruits yet.

She harps on the fact that the baby has reflux and spits up alot- She calls several times a week to ask if he's still spitting up...when I tell her yes, she will say something like..."Oh, intestinal troubles run in your family don't they? You have a lot of stomach issues...." GOD IN HEAVEN... my stomach issues were always due to nerves...since adulthood I have realized that all of those "stomach aches" etc were due to anxiety and stress. This woman creates a lot of stress and anxiety for me. I truly detest her.

She harps on weight all the time. As if I don't have enough of that from my OWN mother, I need it from this woman too? "Your husband is getting fat, you need to make him exercise." All the while looking at ME up and down because I have put on weight that I haven't been able to take off yet since the pregnancy began. She is unreasonable about weight.... my SIL (Hubby's sister) has a little girl that my MIL believes is too fat...the child is 1 1/2 yrs old and within a normal percentile according to the pediatrician. She bases this misguided assumption of "fatness" on the fact that the child has a little pot belly...she is a BABY...for crying out loud!!! After her repeating this over a few times, I finally said to her..."If the Dr isn't worried about her weight, then you should leave it alone! And by the way, if you ever decide to pick on my son this way I will NOT ALLOW it and it will NOT be tolerated!" This woman is the devil I swear!!

I know this is most likely an irrational rant to most anyone who reads it, but know this: all the content is real...this woman tortures me on a daily basis and she does it when she knows that my husband isn't home so she can get away with it. I can't avoid the phone calls, because if I don't answer, she will hang up and keep calling back until I answer..and if I don't answer the house phone, she will call my cell phone. I detest this woman.

Now she has it in her head that we need to eat dinner with her EVERY Sunday...I want to just curl up in a fetal ball and disappear! Hubby and I need alone time to be a family with our son...I am sick and tired of being bullied! A simple visit isn't enough for her...now we have to be up her ass for an entire day and I am SOOOOOOOO dreading it!!!

Ok that's it for my rant... I needed to get this off my chest....

No one is reading this blog anyway, so this was purely indulgent on my part...

That's it and that's all!

Need to get some things off my chest...

I don't normally post more than once in a day...or even in a week, but I feel compelled to do it because I have nowhere else to vent.....

My topic of choice today is family and "friends"...

1) FAMILY- Mine is not always the easiest to deal with- they are dysfunctional, difficult and dynamic. I have a hard relationship with my mother, my mother in law and my sister in law. My mother in law (MIL) is extremely pushy - the classic Jewish mother. She puts her 2 cents in on every topic imaginable and annoys me to the point that I wish that she would just disappear into the cosmos never to be seen again. The other day, she said that I should "stop starving the baby and start feeding him real food already." This is because she does not support my breastfeeding my son. She seems threatened by that for some odd reason. The woman is making me hate being married to my husband, because I have to deal with her! She makes me miserable, bottom line. This post would be 2 miles long if I detailed everything she has done to make me miserable since I had my son. So in the interest of length, I will leave it at that. Now on to my Mom. She's pushy too- a classic Italian mom... and she makes me insane also. She doesn't drive, but has taken me on more guilt trips than any Jewish mother could inflict on a child. She has mental issues (anxiety, depression, claustrophobia and social anxiety) that she has never sought help for and never intends to. Thus, she tortures her family as a result. It's always been hard for me to deal with her..she has been hypercritical of me from birth, I often think that she harbors resentment towards me for being born. I always say that she hates me, and I think there is some truth to it, even though she would never admit to it. And finally, my sister in law. The one in question is the one married to my brother, not my husband's sister (that one is another issue- she's just plain bizarre, but harmless.) This SIL is quite a piece of work. She has issues with attention..she MUST have 100% attention of everyone in the room or she is miserable. She likes to make mountains out of molehills and create drama where there isn't any. Case in point: Last nite we all went out to a Chinese buffet (not my choice, I would have rather stayed at home.)
Hubby was taking pics of all the grandkids, as we were all together in one place and that doesn't often happen. Now, let me preface this by saying that I know that Hubby's comment was dumb, but he was not being malicious about it- this was the comment... as he showed a pic of my sister's 2 kids with my baby to my mom, he said, "Look, here's a picture of your 3 favorite grandchildren!" He said it in a joking way, and meant it to be a joke, he didn't mean that literally. My SIL apparently was really bothered by it, because this morning she posted a cryptic status message on Facebook something to the effect "I wish people would think before they speak, I'd like to put my foot in their mouth!" I of course was puzzled about it, but called my Mom today to ask if she knew if SIL was on the rampage about something...and she said that she bets it was my Hubby's remark. Lovely. Now I have to deal with the drama that will ensue from this. Because SIL posted that status message, she is prompting people to ask what's wrong, and then she will continue her passive aggressive assault on me and Hubby and play the victim. Oh Boo Hoo...her children not being labeled favorites (which I can assure anyone reading this that her girls ARE favorites of my Mom's, especially since they live next door- Mom always denies the favoritism, but it's obvious.) She is looking for MORE attention..it's ALWAYS about HER. ALWAYS.

2) "FRIENDS"- I put the word in quotes because in my life, I do not have many real friends. In fact, people that I thought were my friends later showed themselves not to be friends at all. I can count 1 person as a true friend, and she lives an hour away from me and I don't get to see her much. My other "friend" Shell, has recently proved that she is not my friend after all....I have known her for 20 years, but there was always a conditional friendship there...I'll be your friend IF there is nothing else going on that I deem more important. I am disappointed in her...I really believed that she grew out of the immature "blowing off" of friends. I guess people never change. I am still annoyed about B and being blown off for my baby shower...she never called me when the baby was born, and never sent a gift either. Very rude .

I guess I am rambling now. I don't enjoy this kind of aggravation..I'm glad that I got that off my chest. :)

That's it and that's all!

More updates....

Just a little update.... I had an interview on 7/7/09 (which is the same day as the MJ Memorial btw) at a manufacturing company for a part-time position in purchasing. I was pleasantly surprised with the details of the position. First of all, they were very happy that I have a little baby....they actually started the interview with: "So you have an infant? How old?" Apparently they must have googled me and found my FB or Myspace profile, because those have a pic of myself with the baby (the pic shows even though the profiles are private)... the second question was "What is your benefit situation?" and I told them that I was covered under my hubby. After that, it just continued to get more intriguing. As it turns out, the job will be 20-25 hrs per week during the slow times, and 30-35 in season... it pays $20-$24 per hour! I was so shocked! I expected $10-$15 per hour! So I am definitely interested in this job...we can get by if I can make $20 hr part time. The company really wants someone who is truly interested in part time work, thus the emphasis on my having a baby...they know that I truly don't want to work full time when he is little. They know that a lot of ppl will apply for the job hoping to get it and keep looking, and they don't want that....so I have a bit of an edge in my particular situation. Their only concern is that I don't know the MRP program, but as I told them, you can teach someone a program, you can't teach experience in purchasing. Someone who has a lot of experience will have a proclivity to learn new programs. I think that was a pretty good answer to their concern. I was given a tour of the warehouse and the area that the products are made and I think they are pretty interested in me. So for now I wait...apparently the boss had a planned trip to China for business (to arrange to buy more components) and would not be back for 3 weeks. I wrote a thank you card and sent it the very next day thanking him for his time and expressing my interest in the position...I also followed up with an email restating that information, as well as letting him know that the pay they offer will work with the family budget (he had asked me to get back to him on that info.) At the time that I am writing this, he still has not opened the email (I marked it return receipt) but he may not have his computer with him on the trip....I am hoping that he still has me in mind when he returns from the trip....I know that they planned on interviewing a few more people after me.

Keeping my fingers crossed!
That's it and that's all for now....

Another Interview!

Well, after weeks and weeks of constant applications, I finally got called for another interview! It's for a part-time, seasonal position in my field, which is part-time from Aprl to September, and full time from October to March. I'm not sure what the pay is for this job, but it's 25 hrs per week during the off season and around 40 hrs in peak season. As long as it is on the up and up, then it may be a workable solution for me. I can still have quality time with my baby boy, and still bring in some money. As long as it isn't a really low paying job, it will work. If it nets out to the same as or less than unemployment, then I may pass on it. I need more than $250 per week....I was making about $700 per week in my other job, so I can't really afford to make less than $450-$500 at this point in order to keep our bills afloat. I will have to wait and see how this pans out..the interview is on Tues 7/7 at 2 pm. I will post more about it after it happens.

That's it and that's all for now!