And they did it again...

So last nite I am checking out my FB page and I see an status message from one of my former co-workers at USA A-hole Company that said that there were more layoffs again. I am amazed that this place can continue to function without all the people. They laid off 52 ppl in January (which included yours truly) then in July I know they got rid of the HR contact that I was friendly with (not sure if there were others at that point.) then I heard of the 10 people that were let go yesterday, one of whom was a buyer. I also found out from this former co-worker that they let go another buyer only 2 weeks ago, and there is a rumor of yet one more getting the ax! All I have to say is that I feel a little bit better knowing this....not because I am happy about anyone losing their job, quite the contrary...it's more the confirmation that it was a totally non-personal decision to get rid of me when they did. I think that even if I had been kept on up until now, I'd still be in jeopardy of getting laid off, and if not, then I'd be SO overworked that I'd be a panic ridden mess. More and more I believe that it was God's plan to get me out of that place at that time. It gave me time to truly focus on my baby boy, and hopefully figure out what I need to do next. I am still uncertain where this path will lead me...but I will continue to have faith that God is guiding my hand in it.

Speaking of my little boy...he's 7 months old. He is sitting up pretty well now (with some help to get there) and is "army crawling" on the floor. I am also proud to announce that he is now sleeping in his crib at night, although he is still not sleeping through the night every night...I get up at least once to nurse him in the middle of the night...I think that he wakes up and realizes he is alone and gets upset..but hopefully the longer he stays in there the better things will be in the end. I wake up and check on him at least once a night aside from when he wakes himself up anyway. I have a little bit of anxiety with him away from me...for his entire life I have had him by my side. I feel like something is missing when he's not there...it's hard to explain if you have never had a baby. It's an adjustment for me as much as for him.

Anyway, that's the most recent update on former job and baby...

That's it and that's all!

A Day To Reflect- Never Forget

Today is 9/11/09, and 8 years ago today was the attack on our country that killed 3,000 citizens going about their day, not knowing that it would be their last. I remember that day and the following ones so vividly, it seems like it was only yesterday. I remember being on the phone with Shell that Tuesday morning during our daily morning call when she was commuting to work. At 8:46 am, I heard on my radio that there was a plane crash at the WTC tower 1... I remember saying..OMG how does a pilot do that by accident? My first thought was that the pilot was ill...maybe passed out or had a heart attack or something...then the 2nd plane hit and I knew that we had been attacked...it was such a sickening feeling... I remember Shell getting very upset... her hubby worked down in that area and couldn't get a hold of him for hours...My cousin worked on Wall Street and I feared for his safety as well... I was so relieved when he called us later that evening and let us know that he was ok...He had to walk over the bridge into Brooklyn and catch a train from there to get home to Long Island..it took hours he said. My hubby's cousin and then gf (now wife) had an apartment just a block or 2 away from there... their place was covered in soot and ash and the air quality was so terrible that they ended up leaving the place and moving out to CT nearer to her parents to get away from it. Despite all that, I feel fortunate that I didn't have a personal connection to a loss at that place. It could have been much much worse... I visited the site back in 2005. It was all cleaned up by then, but the surrounding buildings were still heavily damaged and had scaffolding and tarps on them. You weren't allowed to photograph any of them, they had cops there making sure that was not happening. Not really sure why, but they said it had something to do with security. It was never explained sufficiently.

So today I reflect on that terrible day and remember the victims of that attack, including the first responders of the NYPD and the Firefighters that gave their lives trying to save others. I pray for their souls, and I pray that something like this can never happen again.

God Bless America.

That's it and that's all....

The job hunt continues....

So it's the month of September- I have been out of work for 7 months now. My baby boy continues to grow and progress...he eats cereal and fruit, rolls and scoots on the floor, enjoys his exersaucer and jumperoo and his TV shows on Noggin. I have been looking for work and there has been NOTHING out there for me. This week was a good week- I found 2 jobs to apply to on Careerbuilder, but so far I have not heard a thing. At this point I am pessimistic about finding any kind of employment in 2009. I pray daily for a referral to a job. Despite a lot of networking, I have turned up very little. The job situation in FL continues to be bleak.

My spot of joy is my baby boy. He is literally the light of my life, and I don't think I'd get out of bed in the morning if it weren't for him. He keeps me going- mostly because baby care is all consuming, and the reward of his development is my incentive as well. He laughs all the time, he is learning new things all the time, like "clap hands". I taught him that in 2 days. He's a bright and observant little one. I look forward to seeing more of his discoveries about life. Maybe this is what I am supposed to be doing at this time- just being a Mom to him and caring for him. I have to keep faith that God has me in this situation for a reason, and I need to work through it. In God all things are possible, I truly believe that.

I don't have much more to say, but to keep your children close to you, enjoy them and have faith that all is how it is supposed to be.

That's it and that's all!