Showing posts with label baby update. Show all posts
Showing posts with label baby update. Show all posts

Saturday, September 11, 2010

It's Been Awhile....

I guess it's becoming a habit to only get in here to blog every 2 months- I think about blogging, and then inexplicably become distracted by some other thing, usually involving my son.

Speaking of my son, he is now 19 months old. He's still not saying a lot of words, he currently has about 9 words: Mama, Dada, Poppa (my father), ball, butt, what, no, hi & moon. He also says "uh-huh" instead of yes when I ask him if he wants something. I have yet to get him to say "milk", which I thought he would learn quickly because it's the one thing he always asks for- he uses the sign for milk instead of saying it. He will also sign "all done" and "more" and that's about it. He recently started waving Hi and Bye and using it appropriately. His Pediatrician thinks he may have a speech delay, and I am supposed to check again at 22 months if he's not using more words he will have to go for evaluation and speech therapy. Since his 18 month checkup he went from 2-3 words to the 9 I mentioned, so he picked up a bunch this month. Hopefully he will get caught up- I really hope so, it makes me worry that he has a developmental delay. I always have the fear that he could be autistic like my nephew, who is the only other male grandchild on this side of the family. Autism affects boys more than girls, and does have a genetic connection, although we don't know of anyone with this disorder in our family, so we are not sure which side of the family has the gene- mine or my husband's, or in the case of my sister- her side or her husband's. It's never shown up before so we have no idea. So as a result, I am hyper-aware of every stage of development with my son, I am always watching for the outward signs. So far the only thing that has any concern is the language development. He seems to be social, looks people in the eye, although he is shy with new people. That could be his personality, and that in itself is not an autistic trait. He also started pointing and he does play with blocks and other toys. So this may just be a speech delay, and in that case it is easily remedied with the correct therapy. I work with him every day naming objects, and showing him things like turning on the light switch, closing the door, opening the refrigerator- all of which he LOVES to do REPEATEDLY btw... he definitely like to learn new things, so that is great. I love when he brings me his book and points to the picture of the moon- he tells me "Mun, Mun" that's how he pronounces it, lol! He also loves the picture of the monkey in the book, although he can't say that word yet. Other favorite pictures are of a girl, a goat, an elephant and a flag. Maybe these will be the next words, that remains to be seen. Another favorite thing is music- he LOVES music and dances when he hears a song he likes. He's especially fond of "Yo Gabba Gabba", "Jack's Big Music Show", "The Backyardigans" and "The Fresh Beat Band." He loves the Laurie Berkner Band, Moose and Zee, and all of the musical interludes on Nick Jr. There's a song called "Papa Moko Jumbie" that he just LOVES when it comes one..he dances to it all excitedly. So cute!!

As you can tell, I have been pretty busy with my baby lately- between work, and taking him for his swimming lessons, and shuttling him back and forth to Grandma's house, I have so little time in the day. It's gonna get more hectic starting next week because my boss leaves for China on this coming Tuesday and will be gone for 3 weeks. He had planned the trip prior to this, but had to move it up unexpectedly when we discovered that our Chinese vendors are running behind in our shipments that are supposed to get here right in the heart of our busy season. Our leadtime for product is 60 days and some of the orders are already going to be a month late and they haven't even hit production yet. My boss feels that if he is on-site then his presence will ensure that they get going on our orders and don't put anyone else's in front of ours. It's the only tactic he has to make sure we get our delivery on time, or else risk the wrath of the almighty Wal-Mart. We are going to lose some of their business come February as it is, as they have decided to take our lower level product out of their stores in favor of a competitor's, but they are keeping the premium level product. The problem is, the premium level product has less of a profit margin on it as we pay fees for the branding on them, whereas our lower level brand product (which Wal-Mart has as their store brand) is completely ours and even though it is cheaper, we make more money on it. The loss of this business is going to completely derail our 2011 sales, and to combat it we have started rolling out a new product to our international customers that we are trying to get sold here in the US. Right now we have no national distribution of this product, but our marketing department is courting the larger retail chains to get them interested. To sweeten the pot, we are offering all kinds of discounts and incentives to the retailers that take us on- and a FREE national TV ad campaign that mentions which store you can buy it at. You can't beat free promotion for your store. My company is going to put up 5 mil just for the advertising, so you know it's a serious deal. We need to replace the lost Wal-Mart sales, and for my peace of mind I hope they do. I'd hate to be job hunting again after finally finding a great job that I love. Keep your fingers crossed on this one.

Now for a Shell update: basically, she hasn't called or anything since her birthday in June. So the update is, there is nothing to tell. However, I have decided to not be bothered with her anymore. I just can't stay on the rollercoaster wondering if and when she'll return my calls or messages, or continue to think and over think why she doesn't respond, or obsess over what I possibly did to her to make her not speak to me anymore. It's too much energy to waste on someone who obviously doesn't give a crap about me. I need to move on from it. So that is my decision- let the friendship go, let it go to the great big friendship graveyard and be free of it. I have always been the one who kept the friendship alive and it takes 2 people to maintain one. She gave up reciprocating, therefore so will I. My only regret is not coming to this conclusion sooner than I did. Perhaps I never wanted to face the fact that I will truly be alone and not have a best friend any longer. The fact is- I haven't had a best friend for many years, and although I dearly miss having a best friend, I have been able to get by without her. Having my son and the responsibility of parenting helped to clarify this - I need to give 100% of my energy to worthy pursuits that enable me to be the best Mother I could possibly be. If there is something that mentally or emotionally takes me out of that zone, it's taking away from my son, and I can't allow that to happen. I need to be mentally happy and healthy for my boy, period. Therefore, it is with great sadness that I make this decision, however, the one priority I have is my son, and he will always come first. I don't have time for conditional friendships or part-time friends. My time is too valuable, and my mental health and emotional health are too valuable.

So I will sign off on that note, and hopefully things will return to normal, if there ever was normal to begin with !! :0)

That's it and that's all!!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

My Baby Boy is 1 Year Old! and a Rant

I can't believe it...it's a new year and my baby boy turned 1 year old on Feb 6th. He's 30.5 in tall and 21.5 lbs. He's eating some table foods now and drinking less bottles. He is cutting 5 more teeth as we speak! It's been a busy year so far...he's getting close to walking too...he cruises everywhere and he says "mama" and "dada"too! We had a big birthday party for him this past Saturday and he enjoyed himself so much with all the kids, the bounce house and especially his birthday cake! It was a nice day.

I am still working part time, and I enjoy the job more and more. My boss is the nicest guy and he does not overload or stress me with work. I recently held down the fort for him for 2 weeks when he was on a business trip to China and I think I did pretty well. I pray that this company continues to be a good thing for me, and that I have some career growth there. So far so good.

Now on to the rant of the day- I have to say something about bad friends (AGAIN). It seems to be a broken record with me, this friend screws me over, that friend shuts off...etc. But I swear that this keeps happening, and it's a mystery to me WHY. I wish I knew. This particular rant is about Shell- my supposed oldest best friend. She has grown pretty distant since I had my baby, and she has pretty much turned back to her old man hunting ways, acting like a teenager again by carrying on with guys. She has been involved with a married guy for about a year now, he lives in NY and they go back and forth visiting one another and have their trysts. She thinks I am stupid and don't know anything about it, but one of her other friends gave me some details about it and told me what she has been up to and hasn't been telling me. Anyways, she has been acting really weird for the entire year- and it comes to my baby boy's 1st birthday party and she blew it off. First she RSVP's that she and her daughter are coming, then the day before the party...she calls me and tells me something about her daughter having a weird rash and she wanted to make sure it wasn't contagious, so she was taking her to the Dr that afternoon. I told her, fine, call me when you know something. Hours pass, and later that evening I get a text message from her sayins "At the hospital." No explanation was given...so I send her a message right back asking what happened and to call me, and she sends back. "Can't call, will call you later." So here I am...worrying that there is a serious problem with her daughter, and all she would text back is that the Dr sent them straight to the hospital. I texted her back to call me and let me know what happened and how her kid is doing, and I never hear back from her. The next morning, I put a FB wall post on her wall asking what happened and to call me, and I get no response. The party comes and goes, I never hear from her, and I call after the party and I get no answer at her house or cell. I left a message expressing my concern- and you got it...nothing.
By this point, I am plain pissed off. I think I deserve the courtesy of a return call, especially since I was left hanging Friday nite like that. Well, today Tuesday, she calls me cell phone as I am driving home from my boy's Dr appt and I decided NOT to answer it. I am pretty fed up with her excuses and her outlandish stories and I am not entirely certain that she hasn't exaggerated this whole thing to get out of buying a gift and attending the party. Not for anything, but I went to ALL her daughter's birthday parties, her christening, her communion and dance recitals. I always gave gifts too. I find it really rude to not reciprocate when I had been giving to her kid for 15 years. Aside from the gift issue, there is the blatant disrespect for me as a friend to not communicate to me what was supposed to be some sort of emergency and let me sit and wonder what the hell happened! She left a lame voice message saying that she just got back from the hospital today and her phone was ringing off the hook all weekend and it was going dead and she had SO many people to call back, etc and to call her so she can tell me what happened. At this point, I am NOT interested what happened. She is playing games again and I am sick and tired of it. This is the same type of BS that she has ALWAYS pulled and I am not forgiving and forgetting about it this time. She is only a friend when it's convenient for her to be, and I don't want any more part time friends- you're either in or your out. There's no in between anymore. I'm not an idiot- I have seen her ignore phone calls on her cell, where she looks to see who it is and just doesn't answer. She does it to me all the time and I am SICK of it. I am NOT going to pick up her calls anymore. I don't have room in my life for that type of stuff, and even though I am very hurt by her behavior, I am not going to allow her to weasel her way back in so she has me on standby for when she wants to be around. I'm DONE with it. Totally done.

Rant over... that's it and that's all!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Loving the job!

It's been a month since I have had a chance to post... I have been busy with my new job and my family life! The job is a breeze...no stress, only 20 hours per week, and just enough challenge to keep me interested. This is the job that I have been searching for and I can't believe that I finally found it!

My baby boy turned 10 months old on the 6th. He has 6 teeth, he stands up and cruises from place to place holding on to the furniture. He weighed 19.4 lbs and is 29 inches long at his last Dr's appt. He is such a joy in my life I adore him! He's finally displaying a lot of personality, and is getting a little easier to care for, although he is a handful....we had to install the baby gates to keep him out of my kitchen and dining room! There was a little bit of sadness the other day when we took his mobile off the crib...he had begun pulling on it. That was the last of the "newborn" things in his room, he's growing up so fast now!

Christmas is coming up- and I am looking forward to it...but I still haven't put up my tree- I'm afraid of the baby getting into it. I will probably put it in the dining room outside of the gated area. We HAVE to have a tree...it's his 1st Christmas after all!

Another little piece of news... I have FINALLY arranged to have the baby baptized- it's technically called a "dedication" in the Protestant church. We are having it on Dec 27th - 2 days after Christmas. My sister will be able to be here for it, and she and my brother will be the godparents. I'm relieved to get this done- it's been weighing on me that he hasn't been blessed in church. My Hubby wasn't too happy with the idea, being that he is Jewish, but I explained to him- if you're not practicing, it shouldn't matter to you, And isn't it better for the baby to be blessed anyway? We told my in-laws and so far they seem ok with it. They aren't religious either, so my justification holds. I also reminded Hubby that we didn't get married in church and he promised me back then that the kids could be baptized. I think he figured I'd never go through with it. He doesn't realize how deep my faith in the Lord is. He wasn't raised the same way I was. That's ok, my son will learn from me. I have no problems with teaching him anything!

Anyway, this has to be short and sweet...baby boy has woke up from his nap and I have to go get him....

That's it and that's all for now....!

Monday, November 9, 2009

Feeling Blessed!

I had my first "Monday" at my new job today. I started setting up my new office and files, and I even cut a couple of po's on my first real day on the job. So far so good. I like my new boss, who is super nice..and I am loving the fact that I have my own office with a door. I can totally block out any noise, etc if I am on the phone and actually have a private conversation. It's a new thing for me!

In other news... US A-hole Company laid off 20 more people today- and the 2 people that were left there that I truly liked were among the unlucky ones...my ex boss and my one friend D. My ex boss Facebooked me to let me know that he was laid off- I haven't heard from D yet..but I did send her a message telling her that I was sorry to hear about it. I know her husband was laid off last year around the holidays and now it happened to her this year. I hope that she will be ok. I hope she emails me back..... I find it ironic that I started this job just as they started cutting personnel again... It's also ironic that my ex boss JUST was a reference for me last week when I was being hired for my current job. Thank goodness I got the job before all this happened...it would have been hard to do a reference for my last position otherwise...

My baby boy is cutting TWO more top teeth for a new total of 6 teeth...so he's been a little cranky, but thank GOD he has been SO much better for my mom when she babysits him for me so I can work. I think that once I get into the groove of this company and the routine of dropping off the baby and picking him up every day, I will do great. It's another period of adjustment is all...and since I have had constant changes for the past year it's not a big deal anymore...we are on to a new phase in our lives!

In summation...I feel so very blessed to have this new job and an opportunity to start a new career at a different company and may I have a long and successful career there!

That's it and that's all!!!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Job Update

So, I had my 2nd interview at that manufacturing company yesterday....and it looks like I am being offered the job! I spent another 2 hours there with the guy who will be my boss, who is SUPER nice and I think I will like working with him.... I think once I learn the ins and outs of this business I will be a super star there...here are the details of the position:

It is part time for now- they are going to make sure that I am hired as a permanent employee and not a temp, so that I don't get laid off in a couple of months once the busy season ends. The new boss said that if I catch on well and do well, he can make a case for me to be a full time employee. I will work about 20 hrs per week to start off...and I can make my schedule to whatever works for me and the baby. For now, I will work 8 am to noon or 9 am to 1 pm, whichever works better for me. I was also told that they will try to get approval for me to be paid for the holidays that the office is closed, which would be nice. This is the first place I have seen that actually has nice holiday time off: Paid for Thanksgiving Day and Black Friday, Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, Labor Day, Memorial Day, July 4th, and even Good Friday- I have never even heard of a company that gives you Good Friday off! (Essentially that is compensating you for Easter Sunday, since it's always a Sunday you would not normally get paid for that holiday at any other company!) Another perk- I will have my own office for the first time in my working career! It's a nice size too- they already showed it to me. It just needs to be outfitted with a desk and stuff, it's currently empty. Basically the only thing I am waiting for is for them to get the approval to pay me the money I asked for (which comes out to more $ per hour than the last job I worked at USA A-hole company) and to get me the paid holidays as well. If they accomplish that for me I will be THRILLED. This is the type of job that I was looking to find once I had the baby...Part time, well paying, and flexible. It's almost too good to be true. I hope that there are no catches to this thing, I want it too much!

I made sure to let them know that I was so disappointed when they never responded to me back in July and August when I asked about the status of the position. They claim to have been hit with a hiring freeze right after I interviewed. However, that cannot explain the lack of courtesy in getting a response back. All they needed to do was let me know about the hiring freeze and I would have understood that. As it turns out, the reason why I am being hired now is because the guy that will be my boss was SO overwhelmed with work (apparently Wal-Mart put in an unexpected huge order not figured into their demand) that he couldn't physically do it all anymore, and he started having panic attacks (gee that sounds familiar!) So they finally got approval to hire a part timer to help out. His goal is to get me in there full time. He told me at one time there were 3 buyers doing what he does now. I could only imagine the pressure he is under. I think he is very well paid though. He travels for the company all the time- international and all...but all the money in the world is not worth your health and well being, so I think that is why he is pushing so hard to get me hired in at my terms. The HR lady told me that I was the front runner for the job all along and once he got the ok to hire someone, he asked for me specifically. He knew from the get go that I was what he wanted. I guess I REALLY impressed him in the interview. I had a feeling that I did...which is why I was SO confused when I never heard back from them again.

So anyway, that's the deal there...and on a side note, I have finally decided to wean baby boy from the breast...he made it easy for me, since he has not wanted to nurse. He prefers the faster flow of the bottle and doesn't want to work for it anymore, so I stopped pumping (I wasn't getting more than an ounce anyway after an entire hour of pumping!) I guess it's time now. I am saddened a little, I actually came to enjoy the time I spent feeding him- but he's getting bigger now, and I am going back to work soon, so it all worked out for the best. As I have said before, God has his plan for you and things will always work out the way he wants them to. I have my faith in Him and it has once again brought me through.

That's it and that's all!!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

It's my birthday.....

So today is my 37th birthday... it sure doesn't feel like a birthday... Hubby had to work (and will likely have to work overtime), my parents are out of town on their 40th anniversary trip that I arranged, my in laws are in Atlanta babysitting my niece... I'm pretty much alone today, except for my precious baby boy! Who, by the way is now 8 1/2 months old and starting to CRAWL!! He scoots most of the time, but he is very proud to show me his crawling stance and he takes a few tentative "steps" so to speak..he also sits up independently now..he is sprouting his 3rd tooth (it's the first of the top 2) and to my dismay, is starting to wean himself from breastfeeding...he prefers getting his milk from the bottle instead of the breast, he hates to work for it!! So I have been pumping my milk and freezing it, and dear Hubby feeds him a 1/2 mommy milk, half formula bottle in the morning...the rest of the day is formula and his solids. My boy is growing so much! We finally brought him to an upper GI specialist to get him help for his reflux..he started Prevacid along with his Zantac, and he's greatly improved, although he still spits up some. He gained an entire lb in the first 13 days of being on the meds, so that is a positive indication that the meds are working. My baby boy is now 27.5 in and 18.06 lbs! He's starting to outgrow the 6-9 month clothes and going into the 12 month ones. :)

As far as the job hunt goes, it's been really slow. There is not much out there to apply to in my field, and those jobs I do apply to I never hear back from them- and there is no contact info to follow up on, so it's a black hole. I get about 1 or 2 calls every week from one recruiter or another that is looking to fill some job in my field that is either 1) out of state or 2) way above my experience level. I truly believe that recruiters are a complete waste of time and energy for the average job seeker. They are only looking to score a commission off their job order, not to help anyone but themselves. I have come to really dislike recruiters and I am very cynical every time I hear from one. There have been a couple that I have spoken with that were probably ok, but once they knew I didn't fit what they needed they moved on. There are a couple that keep calling me, and try to fit me in a much lower level position that I don't want, and when I return their calls, they don't even answer the phone, or call me back either. I truly believe that they are just looking for people to send on interviews to keep the client interested or else they will move on to another agency. It's all BS and nonsense and I have no patience for it anymore.

With that being said, I DO need a job, but I just think I am going to be out of work until the new year. That does dismay me- however, I believe that things should pick up by then and if we can hang on long enough, we will be ok. I do my part and NOT spend money at all unless it's an essential for the household or the baby- I have become pretty savvy with "couponing" and have managed to save up to 50% on my grocery bill most weeks. It's a lot of work- a part time job in itself- but it's worth my time. Plus, it's super satisfying to see the detail on your receipts that show how much you save. It's fun and addicting all at the same time!

So, it's my birthday and I do wonder if my "friends" will even bother to acknowledge my birthday today. A few of my FB friends and old HS classmates have done so already. I am still waiting to hear from my family, Shell, B&A (not likely, but curious to see if they say anything), Miss G (another not likely) and Scooter (my gay, bi-polar friend of 20 years that I hear from occasionally.)

So, I guess I will update later on if I have time...

That's it and that's all for now!

Friday, September 11, 2009

And they did it again...

So last nite I am checking out my FB page and I see an status message from one of my former co-workers at USA A-hole Company that said that there were more layoffs again. I am amazed that this place can continue to function without all the people. They laid off 52 ppl in January (which included yours truly) then in July I know they got rid of the HR contact that I was friendly with (not sure if there were others at that point.) then I heard of the 10 people that were let go yesterday, one of whom was a buyer. I also found out from this former co-worker that they let go another buyer only 2 weeks ago, and there is a rumor of yet one more getting the ax! All I have to say is that I feel a little bit better knowing this....not because I am happy about anyone losing their job, quite the contrary...it's more the confirmation that it was a totally non-personal decision to get rid of me when they did. I think that even if I had been kept on up until now, I'd still be in jeopardy of getting laid off, and if not, then I'd be SO overworked that I'd be a panic ridden mess. More and more I believe that it was God's plan to get me out of that place at that time. It gave me time to truly focus on my baby boy, and hopefully figure out what I need to do next. I am still uncertain where this path will lead me...but I will continue to have faith that God is guiding my hand in it.

Speaking of my little boy...he's 7 months old. He is sitting up pretty well now (with some help to get there) and is "army crawling" on the floor. I am also proud to announce that he is now sleeping in his crib at night, although he is still not sleeping through the night every night...I get up at least once to nurse him in the middle of the night...I think that he wakes up and realizes he is alone and gets upset..but hopefully the longer he stays in there the better things will be in the end. I wake up and check on him at least once a night aside from when he wakes himself up anyway. I have a little bit of anxiety with him away from me...for his entire life I have had him by my side. I feel like something is missing when he's not there...it's hard to explain if you have never had a baby. It's an adjustment for me as much as for him.

Anyway, that's the most recent update on former job and baby...

That's it and that's all!

Friday, September 4, 2009

The job hunt continues....

So it's the month of September- I have been out of work for 7 months now. My baby boy continues to grow and progress...he eats cereal and fruit, rolls and scoots on the floor, enjoys his exersaucer and jumperoo and his TV shows on Noggin. I have been looking for work and there has been NOTHING out there for me. This week was a good week- I found 2 jobs to apply to on Careerbuilder, but so far I have not heard a thing. At this point I am pessimistic about finding any kind of employment in 2009. I pray daily for a referral to a job. Despite a lot of networking, I have turned up very little. The job situation in FL continues to be bleak.

My spot of joy is my baby boy. He is literally the light of my life, and I don't think I'd get out of bed in the morning if it weren't for him. He keeps me going- mostly because baby care is all consuming, and the reward of his development is my incentive as well. He laughs all the time, he is learning new things all the time, like "clap hands". I taught him that in 2 days. He's a bright and observant little one. I look forward to seeing more of his discoveries about life. Maybe this is what I am supposed to be doing at this time- just being a Mom to him and caring for him. I have to keep faith that God has me in this situation for a reason, and I need to work through it. In God all things are possible, I truly believe that.

I don't have much more to say, but to keep your children close to you, enjoy them and have faith that all is how it is supposed to be.

That's it and that's all!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

6 months already???

I can't believe that my baby boy turned 6 months old last week on the 6th...I have been too busy with him to post anything...he's very active and wants 100% of my attention at all times...he's so much like his father it's not even funny...

He's rolling over all over the place these days...and he is eating cereal and fruit, grabbing and picking up toys and today starting HITTING me...lol...out of nowhere while he was nursing today, his left arm just started hitting my boob as he was eating...I was like..what the hell is this??? LOL...I guess he's learning how to use his appendages. He tries to get up on his knees now..and he sleeps on his belly. It's amazing how he likes to be on his tummy now, a couple of months ago he hated it and I had to force tummy time on him. Go figure... babies are amazing. That's all I can say about that.

Well, it's been over a month since I interviewed for that part time job, and I haven't heard a peep back from them at all! I did everything that you are supposed to do for follow up: I sent a thank you note the next day after the interview (sent on 7/8), I sent an email following up on some information that the guy wanted (sent on 7/10) and left a voice mail message on his phone ( on 7/31.) I marked the email return receipt, and I never got the receipt back, so I am assuming that it was deleted without being read. Today I decided to contact the HR person at that company to see if I could get some sort of response, I emailed her with a return receipt and so far nothing. I don't understand what happened here...the day I interviewed, the guy acted like he was ready to hire me on the spot..and made it sound like I would be hearing from them as soon as he returned from the 3 week long business trip to China. I had SUCH a good feeling about this job and I am so confused why I can't even get an update from them on the status of the position. If they hired someone, couldn't they at least give me the courtesy of a response to my inquiry? It makes no sense, and it makes an even worse impression. It makes me think twice about this company... if they treat you this way as an applicant, how to they treat the employees?

I guess I should adopt the attitude that if it was the right thing for me, it would have come through...but I at least would appreciate some feedback from them as to why I wasn't the right fit for them so I can fine tune my presentation at my next interview. That would be professional courtesy.

So, here goes again...I continue to look and pray that the right thing is there for me that I seek...

Keep your fingers crossed! That's it and that's all for now!!

Friday, May 1, 2009

12 weeks old today!

My little angel is 12 weeks old today...I can't believe that on May 6th it will be officially 3 months ago that I gave birth to him...it seems like just yesterday.

He's growing by leaps and bounds...he was almost 12 lbs and 23.5 in at his last Dr's appt- he has way surpassed that by now, as he is growing out of his 3 month sized sleepers and is in 6 month size because he is so long. He is developing a personality now- he is fairly demanding- he wants what he wants when he wants it, but he is also very sweet and smiles and coos a lot. He is grabbing onto things now- he especially likes to pull off his bibs and puts them in his mouth. He likes to grab Mommy's necklace and the burpcloth off her shoulder as well. As my Mom likes to say, "This kid is going to be something else! You better be prepared!" She is of the opinion that he is going to be really high energy and that I am going to have my hands full with him. I am ok with it, as long as he is healthy and happy that is all that really matters to me. I love him with every fiber of my being and could not imagine life without him. Now, if only I can get him to sleep in the crib instead of the car seat, I'll be set!! He has occasionally slept 5-7 hrs at nite, but it's not consistent. I get up with him at least once per nite to nurse him, and often it's twice (it was twice last nite.) He fights his sleep in the evening and at nap time so I have to rock him and bounce him around to get him to go to sleep. It's a work in progress...I am trying my hardest to do everything right, but I am sure that I have made mistakes. Oh well! I'm new at this- it's to be expected!

My first Mother's Day is coming up....I can't believe that I finally get to be honored on this day...I hope that Hubby remembers to do something for me. I would love a piece of jewelry to comemmorate this day, but I know it's not financially possible. I am still out of work, and although I have been searching intently (as much as I can with a newborn.) I have had no bites on my resume as of yet. I have been networking as much as possible to get job leads. So far nothing.. I pray that we can stay financially afloat and not get behind on our bills. I pray for a financial windfall like the lotto- that would help not only my household, but my parents' as well. They are in a bad way right now- they are facing foreclosure on their home and I can't do anything to help them. It's all very stressful. I pray daily- that's about all I can do.

And on that note, I will close this post. I am happy with my baby, enjoying staying home with him as long as I am able to, and pray for better economic times for all of us.

That's it and that's all!!