30 weeks today!

It's been a few months since I have posted any blogs. I have been so busy that I haven't had the time...let me get caught up here....

1st- I am 30 weeks pregnant today- I am well into my 7th month of my pregancy and things have finally started to feel real. I have had a hard go of it these past 7 months...from the constant sickness the first trimester, to the stress and trip to the hospital in my 2nd trimester. The job has made things harder, I will explain more in the next part. As far as the baby goes, we still don't have a name for him. We can't really agree on one. My family has been very vocal with suggestions...most of which I detest. My husband's mother had some suggestions that I did not like either. The fact that she said to me, "I'm not going to say any other names because you won't use them because I suggested them." pretty much sums up the situation. She also made a comment that she hopes I use a simple, normal name... not one of those new names that all the celebrities use these days. Just for spite I should name him Table or Knife Block....something stupid..but then again, that only punishes the poor baby. I want to remain original, yer not bizarre. It's a fine line, a very hard one I admit.

We have started his room, getting it ready....we installed new carpets and received his nursery furniture all before Thanksgiving. Now all we need to do is clear out the closet. That is considerably harder to do. It needs to be done before the baby shower- which will be on January 10th. That's another whole blog topic on it's own. I will save that one for the next time.

2nd- Now on to the job. Let's see, I am on my 3rd boss since I started there. The first one was fired 3 weeks after I started, then the 2nd one came in July, only to leave in September due to a health problem. The 3rd is a lady who came from corporate was the trainer for the company and she's pretty knowledgeable. She has been helpful, but of course there were more changes. I inherited someone else's desk that decided to transfer to another division. I inherited a NIGHTMARE of work that I am still trying to sort out and it's been over 6 weeks since she left. Then I found out 3 days ago that they are restructuring again and that now I won't be reporting to the guy that I was reporting to- who I have really liked and worked well with- but to the other manager, who I can't stand. Things are in constant motion there...it's a stressful environment- so much so that about a month ago I ended up in the hospital with contractions. The Dr. threatened bed rest, but I told her I couldn't do that...I wasn't working there long enough to be entitled to FMLA. So she wrote me a note dictating that I am only allowed to work 8 hrs per day for the duration of the pregnancy. So now I am working 7:30 to 4 pm- I love the hours they are what I have always wanted to work- but it's only temporary. The one good thing is that I am less stressed just knowing that I have my work schedule guaranteed by the Dr's note. And it's not like I'm working less than 40 hrs....so they can't say that I am not earning my paycheck. Prior to this note, I was working a consistent 50-55 hr week and it was only getting worse with the holiday rush approaching. So it was a Godsend that I got that Dr's note. Everything happens for a reason. Now I pray that I can find another job after the baby comes that has more normal hours. I know that the work schedule that they expect is unreasonable with a baby. Especially since I intend to nurse him for as long as I can. The economy is so terrible these days, it will be a daunting task to find new employment. But I will still keep my eyes open, because the job won't come to me- I learned that from working at the other place. I am glad to be out of there....I can't believe it's been almost a year. It's been about a year since I got the insulting jar of M&Ms as the corporate holiday gift too. You know I still have that jar, and some of the M&M's are in there...I keep it to remind me of how bad a job could be. As hard as I work at this new place, I at least have a real function there- what I do makes a difference. It's a different vibe. I am still a cog in the machine..but this machine is more efficient and better than that other one. Hey, at least we got a Turkey for Thanksgiving- it was only 11 1/2 lbs- but it was the gesture that counts.

Speaking of Thanksgiving- 2008 marked the first time that I hosted Thanksgiving in my home. I have been married for 10 years and this was the first holiday that I have done myself. It turned out pretty nice. We were 10 people all together- my in laws, my parents, and my sister, brother in law and niece and nephew. Other than the stress of cleanup- which my house is STILL not perfect over a week afterwards...it was a success. I may be inclined to do it again in the future..just not the immediate future- my little baby boy will be a handful for a little while and it may not be possible to do it. We will have to wait and see.

So, that's the story for now. I promise to get on here more often so I can chronicle how I feel being pregnant, and other stuff that happens.

That's it and that's all for now....

16 weeks today

It' s been a few months since I have written anything. I have intended to, but as they say... the road is paved with good intentions. I guess this will be an update of the events of my pregnancy up to this point. I am 16 weeks today- I am solidly in my 2nd trimester and am not having the sickness like in the beginning. Months 1 and 2 and half of 3 were pretty brutal. 24 hours a day of morning sickness, which I have renamed ALL DAY sickness. The nausea was so bad that I got no relief even as I slept. I would be woken up in the middle of the night to a roiling tummy full of acid and be able to nothing other than eat crackers and dry heave. There is nothing worse than plain nausea, because at least if you could throw up it would be some sort of relief of the symptoms of nausea, but I am not one to throw up easily. In fact, I think I only threw up once the entire pregnancy so far, and that is because of a smell I encountered in the garbage can that was so revolting it turned my stomach inside out. I endured a constant bad taste in my mouth for a couple weeks, constant acid churning in my stomach, breast tenderness like I have NEVER experienced in my life, to the point where I had to wear a bra 24/7 for about 2 months. The symptoms of pregnancy have been no picnic for me indeed. As of now, my current complaints are smell sensitivity, where everything smells gross to me, even foods I previously liked, and even the smell of fabric softener like Snuggle, is so pungent to me that I can taste it and it makes me gag. I still wake up at night a couple of times to pee, and of course after that I am no longer able to fall back asleep. There was one day this week that I woke up at 1:15 am and stayed up until about 4 am, and then had to get up for the day at 5 am to go to work. Needless to say I was a zombie that day. In fact, this morning I woke at 3:15 to pee, and was soo restless that I finally got up and 4:30 am and got on the computer to check email. I figured I would be better off using the time to get something accomplished, so that's what I did.

As for my health, I am doing well, I have gained a lot of weight about 20 lbs since I found out I was preggo, that is on top of already having gained 20 lbs from the LA Weight Loss days...so I am already 40 lbs in the hole and look it. I keep saying how the heck do people always think pregnant women are beautiful? Not this preggo woman...I think I am the most hideous one ever, My skin has been hijacked by hormonal acne eruptions that I can't get a handle on b/c I can't even use my Proactiv anymore. It's truly tragic... lol

The baby of course is doing well. I will find out the sex on 9/19 with my ultrasound appt. I was at the Dr's the other day and I got to hear the heartbeat. It was a good, strong heartbeat, and the previous ultrasounds I had were good. The Dr tells me everything looks great. I endure all the unpleasantness just so I can know that one fact. All I want is a healthy, happy, beautiful baby. I am looking forward to seeing this little one soon.

After much contemplation and trepidation, I told work about my pregnancy. I felt it better to tell them sooner rather than later so that they are well aware of my situation and my needs to leave for Dr's appt, etc. I also wanted to make sure that they were well aware that they had to watch my stress level. So far they haven't really done that, as they have still stressed me to the max, but the thing is, I am allowed to freak and and lash out more and I don't get penalized for it. So that's a plus. ;)

Other than that, there is not much to say, other than I am starting to allow people to know about the pregnancy. All of my friends know, a majority of the family knows. A&B know, and B has insisted that she will travel here for my baby shower whenever I have it scheduled. My mother in law has insisted on planning the fete herself, and although I have concerns over that, it's a relief to my mom, who has no money at all to throw the shower, since my dad is still unemployed. That's a story for another time though. I don't have the energy to go into that situation in detail.


So that's it and that's all for now..... ;)