17 months old!

I realize that I haven't made an entry in this blog in months....I've been relatively busy. My boy is 17 months old, has FINALLY given up the bottle and drinks out of the sippy exclusively. He is taking survival swimming lessons for the past 5 weeks and is finally getting used to the instructor and not screaming..lol. He climbs on the furniture, opens doors and is generally a menace, but in a good way. He's still not talking yet, per se. He says "mama" and "dada" and ironically "oh shit!" but not much else. He jabbers alot though- he has entire conversations in his own language that only he and his stuffed animals understand. He's just too damned cute!



An update on Shell: She finally called me back after getting a 40th bday card from me. I know that she went to NY for the 4th and to celebrate her bday. She didn't clue me in on whether she wanted to do a local celebration, so I didn't bring it up. As of right now, I have no clue if she is going to make the next move and bother to keep in touch with me on a regular basis. I feel that her heart and her head are in NY, and she is trying to figure out how she can make a move back there permanently. She mentioned that she wants to find a new job. I think she is looking for a job up there, personally, although she didn't say it, I read it between the lines. She also casually mentioned that her daughter wants to move up there to finish HS and if I am right it will prove to me why she's being so distant- she wants to break ties now so it won't be as hard to move away. That's my theory, it will have to play itself out before we know for sure.

Another "incident"- I had a little health scare- long story short, I had found what I thought was a lump under my breast, had it checked out by my dr and had a mammogram and ultrasound- that lump wasn't even there. The radiologist however did find a cyst in the same breast that I was unaware of, and didn't feel it because it's so deep inside the tissue. She reassured me that it was nothing to worry about and was benign. Thank the good Lord that it all turned out ok. Incidentally, I told Shell about this whole thing, and she was naturally concerned (remember she has a friend battling BC and not doing well.) I think that is the only reason why she called me semi-regularly for a week anyway. Then she went on her vacay to NY and although I have texted her, she hasn't bothered to answer me back.

Since I am in the midst of updates, I have one for "A". About a week ago he called me out of the blue at work. I didn't even remember giving him my work #, but I must have at some point. I had a couple of IM convos with him on FB and I must have given it to him. I was pretty shocked that he called, I think it's been a couple years at least since I have spoken to him. He didn't really let on what's going on with him, but I can only infer that from previous run-ins with him, that he's probably on the rocks with B. Maybe they had another fight, who knows? I kept the conversation very neutral, talking mostly about my boy, and he talked about his kids too. His son is PDD like my nephew- and I was telling him that there's hope for him, because my nephew at 8 years old has finally learned how to socialize with other boys his age and has friends in the neighborhood and stuff. I told him that his boy will get there too, as long as the whole family works with him and he has the help he needs at school. But that was the extent of the convo. We spoke about 45 min. I left off on good terms. We didn't discuss the past, thank goodness. I have no interest in rehashing all that drama. I've moved on from it.

One last thing- I attended my 20th HS reunion on 6/12/10. I decided at the last minute (literally the morning of) to go. I managed to get hair and nails done, and find a dress at Ross all in one day. It was as if I was meant to go. Although I do not look my best right now (still have baby weight, plus some) I was really glad I went. I saw a lot of people that i hadn't seen in OVER 20 years, There were a few guys I went to Middle School with that only went to HS with me until 10th grade that didn't graduate with us, that still came. It was a great nite for me. I reconnected with another one of my good friends from HS that happened to be there with her hubby (she married a Dr!) When I last saw her at the 10 yr reunion, she was engaged- now she's married with 3 kids, stay at home Mom, etc. Her parents still live in the area, so she was down here visiting a couple of weeks ago and I got to meet her out for dinner and drinks and have a girls nite out. I haven't done that in YEARS. It was so nice to be out with other ladies my age and have a nice time. And it didn't include Shell. I want to hang out with people that have nothing to do with her, so I can be my own person again. It was a great time, I hope to do it again when she comes to town. She lives in Orlando, about 20 minutes from my sister...so I hope to see her when I go up there too.


So that's it and that's all for now... Ciao!

What a year!

As I sit here typing this entry, I am struck by the thought that this has been quite a year for me... it has encompassed the most changes that I have ever had in a year's period- from being pregnant, to getting then losing a job, having the baby, then getting yet ANOTHER (more suitable) job... Through it all, I had the faith that God would see me through this period of transition and I'd be better because of it.

It was a busy month...my boy is almost 11 months old (next week) and he is doing well...he's VERY active and drives me nuts...and I love him for it. He had his first Christmas and Hanukkah, and was baptized in church...all this month.

This is a short entry... just wanted to get a last one in for the year,....


Here's to a great 2010!!! That's it and that's all.....

What's new this week....

So, it's been 3 full weeks at the new job...and so far, I am fairly certain that I will be confused as hell once they have me take over my portion. With that being said, I don't think that it's the right thing for me in the long term, however, I am being open-minded enough to realize that I DO have the power to change the situation at any time, and that in order for me to get a chance to get an even better job in this field, I have to get to learn this one first so that I can add it to the top of my resume. So for the meantime, I will take everything I can from this job and use it to my advantage when the time comes. It's a lot of hours and a lot of stress, but I have to make the best of it for now. I have not stopped looking for another job...in fact, I have already been on an interview this past Thursday. The job was a lower level than what I am actually doing, and a little further away, but it's a more informal atmosphere and may be a great job in the long run. The downside is that it is an hourly job (although they wouldn't disclose what they wanted to pay) and it is likely a lower paying job than what I am working currently. The only way I would consider this job is if they will pay me what I was making at the other job at XYZ Asshole Company (or fairly close to it.) The benefits are better at Jackass Company (medical, dental and 401 k, 2 weeks vacation after 1st year and sick and personal time, etc.) The job I interviewed for doesn't offer 401 k, and although it has medical and dental, the vacation policy is crappy...only 1 week after the first year, which means that there is no paid time off in the first year of employment... they do pretty much guarantee overtime, which would get more $ in my pocket..but I'd have to trade off some stuff to do this job, if she offers it to me. She will make a hiring decision next week and I will see if she extends me an offer. The only reason she wouldn't want me is because of the pay scale I need...because, other than that, I am more than qualified and would do an exceptional job. It took me months to realize this, but I now know that I could pretty much excel at any job interview that I get, and any employer would be lucky to have me. I have a lot to offer. That is why Jackass Company wanted me so badly. It's just too bad for me that they got me too cheap. Unfortunately, I couldn't negotiate- large corporations like this won't do that for someone on my "level". However, the next big position that I go for, I WILL have that bargaining power because of the valuable experience that I have obtained. So that's the update on the job front....

On to the update on A & B...it's been a while.... I got a call out of the blue the other nite from B. Apparently, A got a big promotion and is now a Senior Big Cheese at his company. How nice for him. I am sure that his already inflated ego is about ready to burst from this one. I told her to tell him congrats for me. I am sure that he wanted her to tell me about it, but is too chicken to speak to me himself. Whatever. I thought that was all that she wanted to tell me, until she dropped the next bomb on me. "Guess what I did last Friday? I got my tubes tied!" After picking up my jaw from the floor, I gained enough composure to ask why the HELL she put herself through yet ANOTHER surgery...her last one was only a month ago to fix her breast implants...you'd think that since she was SO indecisive about the elective surgery for THAT, that she wouldn't consider doing another elective surgery so soon after that one. However, if you recall on a previous post about A & B, I mentioned that she had been after him to get a vasectomy... well, he pretty much WON'T do it. A is so caught up in his macho ego, that he can't even tolerate the thought that he couldn't spread his seed, even though he claims to be "faithful" to B. I say, if you have had all the children that you want to have, and you have no intention of using condoms, or pills for birth control, then it makes more sense for the man to have the surgery because it is less invasive than the tubal ligation. But, as anyone who has read my posts can see, A is a selfish asshole. He has always been a selfish asshole, and he will continue to be a selfish asshole forever. The fact of the matter is, I think he gets off on the idea that he COULD possibly father another child one day. B had to make the decision to protect herself from his "super sperm" as it were, so that SHE doesn't have to deal with another pregnancy. We all know that SHE is the one that does EVERYTHING in regards to home and children alike. I guess in a way I couldn't blame her for it, but if I were her, I would be extremely angry at A for not doing his part, and by his passive aggressive maneuvering, forcing her to undergo a surgery that truly was unnecessary. I look at this as a very sad thing for a couple to be on 2 different planes at the same time. They exist in the same household, but never on the same plane. They are in parallel universes to one another. Truly sad. When I told Shell about this latest bit of news, all she had to say was... Maybe she started to take up with that guy at work and doesn't want to take a chance that SHE could get pregnant by accident. I don't know if that is a possibility for her. Maybe, maybe not. I can't say that I would feel bad for A if she cheated on him. In reality though, I know that she couldn't possibly have the time to fit in a boyfriend, because she has to run her household with no help. But then again... A has been traveling a lot lately...and when the cat's away, and the kittens are asleep upstairs...the mouse can come play all he wants! ;)

That's my update for this week.
I wish all the mothers out there a Happy Mother's Day on Sunday.


That's it and that's all.....