An introduction....

I call this blog "Meanderings" because it is what I aim to do on this blog....this will be my random thoughts, sometimes organized, but not always. I think it will mostly be a way for me to talk about things that have been going on in my life, or in my friends' lives, or in my family's lives. I am treating this as an online diary of sorts, and if anyone out there wants to read it, fine. In fact, sometimes I think I may even enjoy input on my "Meanderings".



So with that said... let me start off by saying that I am an almost 35 year old female, I am married 9 years (next month is my anniversary), no children. The no children part is significant- because I recently found out that I have a fertility problem. I have endometriosis, and my hormone levels are borderline low/normal. I have been seeing a reproductive endocrinologist, and I have had a lot of tests done (so far all ok), however, none of these things have been covered by insurance, and it has presented a huge strain on our finances. Hubby had to cash in some of his childhood bonds that he had for 25 years to pay for the initial tests. We are still unsure how we will raise the money to go through with the artificial insemination and associated meds and doctor visits that go with it. I am also scheduled to have surgery to remove the endometriosis next month. The day after my 35th birthday to be exact. I feel like I need to do this at this point in my life...I feel the urgency of my biological clock ticking. I am the oldest of 3 children in my family..and both my brother and my sister have had 2 children each. It is at the point where everyone looks at me as if I have a problem, and unfortunately, they are correct. The thing is... I'm not telling them about it. I am too embarrassed to do so. So I doggedly pursue my goal of achieving a pregnancy after my surgery- I pray to God that it will happen. That is my biggest worry right now- and my most treasured dream. For anyone out there that reads this, if you know someone who has had a problem like this, or if you are that person, I know you can understand my feelings here.



Enough about that for now...I have a feeling that I will be talking about that more and more in the coming months as I go through all the treatments.



That's it and that's all folks.....