An update....

It has been 6 weeks since my surgery. As far as surgeries go, it was a success. I had a relatively easy recovery from it, and for that I am grateful. The surgeon did find extensive endometriosis, as suspected, and it was bad enough that it had completely covered both ovaries, plastering them to my pelvic wall, and covered over my tubes as well. Apparently, I had an endometrioma (chocolate cyst) on the right ovary that had to be removed. The surgeon gave me pictures of the before and after to bring to the specialist at my next consultation. They are pretty cool, but pretty gross at the same time. It's awe inspiring to see something like a picture of your insides...I mean, how many people really get to see all that anyway? It's kind of neat to see...

Anyway, so far it's only been 1 cycle since and obviously no pregnancy yet. I am still trying... I will continue to try naturally for as long as possible. I am still waiting for the specialist to direct me on what he wants me to do. I had an ultrasound at the beginning of my last cycle, and I have not heard what the next step is to be. I guess I should call the Dr. again, but I keep holding out hope that I will get pregnant on my own without help. It's my biggest wish and prayer these days.

Aside from that, an update on my friends A and B. B decided to get a boob job! She decided that she was ready to do it, and I supported her in it 100%. I am happy for her. She had the surgery a couple of weeks ago and I can tell that already she has an increased confidence level. Good for her. I also found out that she has a little playmate in the office that she has been flirting with for a while. And it makes me wonder if all this plastic surgery talk started because of this flirtation. Honestly, I can't fault her for wanting a little bit of fun. It hasn't gone anywhere as far as I can tell. She has even shared some of the emails that go back and forth with him. They are mostly playful, with a little bit of naughty connotation going on. Like I said, who am I to judge her? I am guilty of doing that myself... so if it makes her feel better to share it with me in order to relieve her guilt...so be it. Truthfully, I get a kick out of it and I have to say that I really really miss that kind of banter in my day now that A is out of my life.

Speaking of A... I have not once heard from him since he visited here back in Sept. He said he'd keep in touch, but I think that both of us knew that he wouldn't. He has totally written me off as a friend now that he knows he can't have me the way he wants to. For him, it's easier to block me out than to try to work on a civil friendship that has no sexual overtones. Because to him, the only relationship with a woman has a sexual overtone. There is no other option with him. It's his way of living...but not mine. So as much as I miss that part of my life, I am also relieved to close the chapter on it. As far as I am concerned, I am friends with B, and that is it. If we ever get to hang out together again I will deal with my feelings about A. But or the most part, I have written him off as well. It's for the best.

That's it and that's all folks....