On Feb 6, 2009 at 7:56 am, I became a Mommy for the first time..my son was born via C Section and it has redefined my world as I know it. I never realized how in love I would be with this baby until I finally saw him. He was 7 lbs, 14 oz and 20.5 in long. He's absolutely precious and I could never imagine there being a time when he wasn't with me.
He had a little bit of a rough start, he was in the NICU for the first 30 hrs because he had fluid in his lungs and had to be suctioned, then he developed jaundice on Day 3 and had to be blood tested every day until Day 7 when it was determined that it was clearing up. Now he is home and doing pretty well I think. I am breast feeding, pumping and using some formula as well. It's working out so far. I am still trying to adjust to the every 3 hour feeding schedule around the clock, and going without sleep in order to do it. I try to snatch a nap whenever I can- I should have been sleeping all this time this morning when the baby was sleeping but I really wanted to get online and post and check email too- I literally have had no time to do that. It's amazing how much work one little person can be. I think we do 5 small loads of laundry per day just of his clothing, bedding, etc. He almost always throws up or pees on something right after we dress him in it, or put him on it in the case of the bassinet sheets. My hubby is at wits end with the laundry... I told him, this is what parenthood is like...just roll with it. He's having a hard time adjusting..I hope he gets better with it soon, because I need his support as much as possible.
So, I guess I will sign off now...I will TRY to get on here with updates as my little one develops. He really IS the most beautiful baby I have ever seen.... :)
That's it and that's all...
:)
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
37 weeks!
Well...it's almost to the end....I am 37 weeks tomorrow- I am definitely having the baby by C section on Feb 6th- 2 weeks from today. I am excited, nervous and scared. I hate the idea of surgety...but I am happy NOT to have to endure labor. I keep hearing how much worse that is. I'll take the easier route, thank you very much.
As a result of this development, I will have my last day at work on Feb 5th- and then I am done with that place for good. Of course, I will be unemployed, but there is a measure of relief to know that I won't have to endure that place and the stress it causes once the baby is here. I will get a chance to really bond being home with him indefinitely. I'll collect unemployment and continue to look for a job...
So that's it and that's all for now.....will blog more later...
:)
As a result of this development, I will have my last day at work on Feb 5th- and then I am done with that place for good. Of course, I will be unemployed, but there is a measure of relief to know that I won't have to endure that place and the stress it causes once the baby is here. I will get a chance to really bond being home with him indefinitely. I'll collect unemployment and continue to look for a job...
So that's it and that's all for now.....will blog more later...
:)
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Baby Shower!
Today is my baby shower.... I am a little excited about it... the whole job layoff thing has put a little damper on things, but it will be a nice afternoon, so I am trying to concentrate on it. I wanted to make note of the fact that B- the same B that is supposed to be my friend- totally ignored the invitation to the baby shower and never RSVP'd- despite telling me from the beginning that "I want to be invited to your baby shower, I want to come in for it." Well, I invited her, and she basically avoided me completely for the past month. I even sent her a personal invitation to stay at my house so she wouldn't need a hotel- I never got a response. I sent a Christmas Card, and a Happy New Year text message, but those were ignored as well. Yesterday, I get a call on my cell from her and I didn't pick up b/c I am pretty pissed off- I mean, come ON...how HARD would it have been to respond to the invitation and say..." I am so sorry, I wish I could come, but I have work." or whatever excuse- any excuse would have been better than the avoidance. I think she just doesn't want to give a gift. Whatever- if she said, "I can't afford to come." I would have understood that as well. The entire thing really didn't sit well with me. Her voice mail on my cell was like "I'm sorry to RSVP so late, but obviously I can't come to the shower, I would like to come visit after the baby is born. Talk to you soon." WHATEVER. She wasn't supposed to RSVP to me, first of all...it was supposed to be my mom or my mother in law, they were the ones listed on the invite as the contact for RSVP anyway. Second of all...why even bother to call the DAY before the shower? It's OBVIOUS that you had no intention of going to the shower- most ppl responded within 2 weeks after it was sent out. It didn't sit well with me...and still doesn't. I'm not going to let it ruin my day. All it did was further open up my eyes to the fact that yet another "friend" really IS NOT a friend at all. Friends don't do things like this. Another so called "friend" Miss G I'll call her- never responded to the invitation at ALL. I did this girl SOOOOO many favors over the years. And the least she could do is respond to an invitation. Basically, I am writing her off as well. She'll never hear from me again. If she can't be a friend to me now, then she isn't my friend. She's someone who uses you for what you can do for her and then never comes through for you when you need her. So adios to Miss G. She can find someone else to rip off original choreo from now. She can kiss my ass!
Angst aside... the people that count are coming to the event. I don't have too many of my friends there, as my mom kept lamenting- you don't have ANYONE to invite? Not even from work?? To which I reponded- no I don't feel comfortable inviting ANYONE from that place. And it's a good thing too- look what ended up happening! I am being laid off anyway and I won't have any contact with any of those people after my little boy is born. Besides, I feel really strongly that my pics of the event do not contain random people that I have no connection to on a long term basis. That's just my feeling on this. I think it's a pretty sound theory. I'll look at these pics years from now and go...who the heck is that??? It just makes good sense to me.
Now for a baby update:
I had my 35 week ultrasound yesterday- my baby is 6 lbs! My placenta is still previa, meaning it's still low, even though it DID move up a lot since last ultrasound- but it's not likely to really move out of the way of the cervix enough that I can deliver naturally. My doc doesn't want me to go into labor and have contractions b/c it could cause bleeding, and it is PROFUSE bleeding when that happens...and that would mean an emergency C section with the possibility of fetal distress. So I left off with her yesterday that we are likely going to schedule me for a C section at 37 or 38 weeks- that is only 2 -3 weeks away! She is going to consult with a perinatologist and let me know Monday what his opinion is regarding the timing of the section, and if he feels it's necessary for me to take an amnio to determine the fetal lung maturity prior to the C section. I am supposed to hear from her on Monday about that news.
I am a little hesitant about the C section part, because it IS still a major surgery- however, I think I am MORE afraid of natural childbirth and the actual labor process...being in pain for 24 hrs etc.
As far as how this will affect my seperation agreement with work, I am not sure. I will have to wait until I know a date to be scheduled before I can figure out what they will do. The way they had it set up, I would not really be returning to work after the baby- I would go out on leave and never come back- with him coming a few weeks early, it leaves a gap- and I am wondering if they would seriously make me go back for a week or 2 weeks and then leave. I'd rather not go back there after he is born. I already have it in my head that I don't want to see that place ever again after I leave. Once I am gone, I am gone for good.
I will have to wait and see how that goes, and of course, I will be updating on here...
That's it and that's all!
Angst aside... the people that count are coming to the event. I don't have too many of my friends there, as my mom kept lamenting- you don't have ANYONE to invite? Not even from work?? To which I reponded- no I don't feel comfortable inviting ANYONE from that place. And it's a good thing too- look what ended up happening! I am being laid off anyway and I won't have any contact with any of those people after my little boy is born. Besides, I feel really strongly that my pics of the event do not contain random people that I have no connection to on a long term basis. That's just my feeling on this. I think it's a pretty sound theory. I'll look at these pics years from now and go...who the heck is that??? It just makes good sense to me.
Now for a baby update:
I had my 35 week ultrasound yesterday- my baby is 6 lbs! My placenta is still previa, meaning it's still low, even though it DID move up a lot since last ultrasound- but it's not likely to really move out of the way of the cervix enough that I can deliver naturally. My doc doesn't want me to go into labor and have contractions b/c it could cause bleeding, and it is PROFUSE bleeding when that happens...and that would mean an emergency C section with the possibility of fetal distress. So I left off with her yesterday that we are likely going to schedule me for a C section at 37 or 38 weeks- that is only 2 -3 weeks away! She is going to consult with a perinatologist and let me know Monday what his opinion is regarding the timing of the section, and if he feels it's necessary for me to take an amnio to determine the fetal lung maturity prior to the C section. I am supposed to hear from her on Monday about that news.
I am a little hesitant about the C section part, because it IS still a major surgery- however, I think I am MORE afraid of natural childbirth and the actual labor process...being in pain for 24 hrs etc.
As far as how this will affect my seperation agreement with work, I am not sure. I will have to wait until I know a date to be scheduled before I can figure out what they will do. The way they had it set up, I would not really be returning to work after the baby- I would go out on leave and never come back- with him coming a few weeks early, it leaves a gap- and I am wondering if they would seriously make me go back for a week or 2 weeks and then leave. I'd rather not go back there after he is born. I already have it in my head that I don't want to see that place ever again after I leave. Once I am gone, I am gone for good.
I will have to wait and see how that goes, and of course, I will be updating on here...
That's it and that's all!
Friday, January 9, 2009
35 Weeks and on the job hunt again
I got the bad news yesterday.....I am losing my job AGAIN....getting laid off for the 2nd time in just under a year. I am still in shock. I am being kept on until I go out for maternity leave- they will pay me for the 6 weeks, then after that I get a big 2 weeks severance pay. I already contacted a labor lawyer and basically I can't pursue any legal action b/c they have covered their bases. They are "eliminating" my position, and b/c it's being eliminated, they don't have to guarantee me a job to come back to after the baby, not to mention, I didn't even get an entire year of service in, my anniversary date is April 21st. So I didn't even stand a chance.
Looking back on the past few months, I don't know if there were any obvious signs. I think that once I got the Dr's note that limited my hours of work to only 40 hrs per week, I think that got them thinking that I would not be able to continue working 50 + hours a week once the baby was born. Realistically, I kept thinking this myself- how the hell was I going to be able to do that job with a newborn? Working at least 7 am to 5 pm (with some days required to stay until 6 pm) and trying to nurse the baby was going to be next to impossible. I wondered how I was going to be able to pump during the day also. I doubt that they would have been accomodating to allow me the access to a private area (not a bathroom) to pump. I think they just didn't want to deal with the potential sick days I'd have to take if the baby was sick, and the leaving early to take him to the Dr's, etc. I think they they started planning this as soon as they saw that I was pregnant. Of course, it is impossible to prove that this was the reason. But in the depths of my soul I KNOW that is what happened. They refused to give me any kind of performance evaluation, I should have had some sort of merit raise after 6 months... I never was made eligible for the bonuses, despite the fact that I took over a higher level position that should have been entitled to it. I knew that this was not the best company, but I was happy that I was employed, and now I am in a spot where I won't have a 3 month severance to carry me like last year. I don't know what I am going to do....but I must reinvent myself again. Perhaps this is the time now that I should completely switch gears and go into a different field altogether. Something medical- they always need people in medical. It's a serious consideration, I don't want to fall victim to another corporation that will lay you off with no concern at all.
Despite the shock, I don't really have any roots at the place. I never made any close friends there. I was always wary of people's intentions and their allegiances. It's just as well. I guess you could say that I can move on easier because I am less emotionally invested in the place. The layoff is not due to performance, but to lost business, etc. Even with the lost business, they gained more big business in it's place, so I really think it's an excuse to get rid of the preggo..but whatever.
I will have to start over, and rise from the ashes like the proverbial phoenix once again.
That's it and that's all....
Looking back on the past few months, I don't know if there were any obvious signs. I think that once I got the Dr's note that limited my hours of work to only 40 hrs per week, I think that got them thinking that I would not be able to continue working 50 + hours a week once the baby was born. Realistically, I kept thinking this myself- how the hell was I going to be able to do that job with a newborn? Working at least 7 am to 5 pm (with some days required to stay until 6 pm) and trying to nurse the baby was going to be next to impossible. I wondered how I was going to be able to pump during the day also. I doubt that they would have been accomodating to allow me the access to a private area (not a bathroom) to pump. I think they just didn't want to deal with the potential sick days I'd have to take if the baby was sick, and the leaving early to take him to the Dr's, etc. I think they they started planning this as soon as they saw that I was pregnant. Of course, it is impossible to prove that this was the reason. But in the depths of my soul I KNOW that is what happened. They refused to give me any kind of performance evaluation, I should have had some sort of merit raise after 6 months... I never was made eligible for the bonuses, despite the fact that I took over a higher level position that should have been entitled to it. I knew that this was not the best company, but I was happy that I was employed, and now I am in a spot where I won't have a 3 month severance to carry me like last year. I don't know what I am going to do....but I must reinvent myself again. Perhaps this is the time now that I should completely switch gears and go into a different field altogether. Something medical- they always need people in medical. It's a serious consideration, I don't want to fall victim to another corporation that will lay you off with no concern at all.
Despite the shock, I don't really have any roots at the place. I never made any close friends there. I was always wary of people's intentions and their allegiances. It's just as well. I guess you could say that I can move on easier because I am less emotionally invested in the place. The layoff is not due to performance, but to lost business, etc. Even with the lost business, they gained more big business in it's place, so I really think it's an excuse to get rid of the preggo..but whatever.
I will have to start over, and rise from the ashes like the proverbial phoenix once again.
That's it and that's all....
Saturday, December 6, 2008
30 weeks today!
It's been a few months since I have posted any blogs. I have been so busy that I haven't had the time...let me get caught up here....
1st- I am 30 weeks pregnant today- I am well into my 7th month of my pregancy and things have finally started to feel real. I have had a hard go of it these past 7 months...from the constant sickness the first trimester, to the stress and trip to the hospital in my 2nd trimester. The job has made things harder, I will explain more in the next part. As far as the baby goes, we still don't have a name for him. We can't really agree on one. My family has been very vocal with suggestions...most of which I detest. My husband's mother had some suggestions that I did not like either. The fact that she said to me, "I'm not going to say any other names because you won't use them because I suggested them." pretty much sums up the situation. She also made a comment that she hopes I use a simple, normal name... not one of those new names that all the celebrities use these days. Just for spite I should name him Table or Knife Block....something stupid..but then again, that only punishes the poor baby. I want to remain original, yer not bizarre. It's a fine line, a very hard one I admit.
We have started his room, getting it ready....we installed new carpets and received his nursery furniture all before Thanksgiving. Now all we need to do is clear out the closet. That is considerably harder to do. It needs to be done before the baby shower- which will be on January 10th. That's another whole blog topic on it's own. I will save that one for the next time.
2nd- Now on to the job. Let's see, I am on my 3rd boss since I started there. The first one was fired 3 weeks after I started, then the 2nd one came in July, only to leave in September due to a health problem. The 3rd is a lady who came from corporate was the trainer for the company and she's pretty knowledgeable. She has been helpful, but of course there were more changes. I inherited someone else's desk that decided to transfer to another division. I inherited a NIGHTMARE of work that I am still trying to sort out and it's been over 6 weeks since she left. Then I found out 3 days ago that they are restructuring again and that now I won't be reporting to the guy that I was reporting to- who I have really liked and worked well with- but to the other manager, who I can't stand. Things are in constant motion there...it's a stressful environment- so much so that about a month ago I ended up in the hospital with contractions. The Dr. threatened bed rest, but I told her I couldn't do that...I wasn't working there long enough to be entitled to FMLA. So she wrote me a note dictating that I am only allowed to work 8 hrs per day for the duration of the pregnancy. So now I am working 7:30 to 4 pm- I love the hours they are what I have always wanted to work- but it's only temporary. The one good thing is that I am less stressed just knowing that I have my work schedule guaranteed by the Dr's note. And it's not like I'm working less than 40 hrs....so they can't say that I am not earning my paycheck. Prior to this note, I was working a consistent 50-55 hr week and it was only getting worse with the holiday rush approaching. So it was a Godsend that I got that Dr's note. Everything happens for a reason. Now I pray that I can find another job after the baby comes that has more normal hours. I know that the work schedule that they expect is unreasonable with a baby. Especially since I intend to nurse him for as long as I can. The economy is so terrible these days, it will be a daunting task to find new employment. But I will still keep my eyes open, because the job won't come to me- I learned that from working at the other place. I am glad to be out of there....I can't believe it's been almost a year. It's been about a year since I got the insulting jar of M&Ms as the corporate holiday gift too. You know I still have that jar, and some of the M&M's are in there...I keep it to remind me of how bad a job could be. As hard as I work at this new place, I at least have a real function there- what I do makes a difference. It's a different vibe. I am still a cog in the machine..but this machine is more efficient and better than that other one. Hey, at least we got a Turkey for Thanksgiving- it was only 11 1/2 lbs- but it was the gesture that counts.
Speaking of Thanksgiving- 2008 marked the first time that I hosted Thanksgiving in my home. I have been married for 10 years and this was the first holiday that I have done myself. It turned out pretty nice. We were 10 people all together- my in laws, my parents, and my sister, brother in law and niece and nephew. Other than the stress of cleanup- which my house is STILL not perfect over a week afterwards...it was a success. I may be inclined to do it again in the future..just not the immediate future- my little baby boy will be a handful for a little while and it may not be possible to do it. We will have to wait and see.
So, that's the story for now. I promise to get on here more often so I can chronicle how I feel being pregnant, and other stuff that happens.
That's it and that's all for now....
1st- I am 30 weeks pregnant today- I am well into my 7th month of my pregancy and things have finally started to feel real. I have had a hard go of it these past 7 months...from the constant sickness the first trimester, to the stress and trip to the hospital in my 2nd trimester. The job has made things harder, I will explain more in the next part. As far as the baby goes, we still don't have a name for him. We can't really agree on one. My family has been very vocal with suggestions...most of which I detest. My husband's mother had some suggestions that I did not like either. The fact that she said to me, "I'm not going to say any other names because you won't use them because I suggested them." pretty much sums up the situation. She also made a comment that she hopes I use a simple, normal name... not one of those new names that all the celebrities use these days. Just for spite I should name him Table or Knife Block....something stupid..but then again, that only punishes the poor baby. I want to remain original, yer not bizarre. It's a fine line, a very hard one I admit.
We have started his room, getting it ready....we installed new carpets and received his nursery furniture all before Thanksgiving. Now all we need to do is clear out the closet. That is considerably harder to do. It needs to be done before the baby shower- which will be on January 10th. That's another whole blog topic on it's own. I will save that one for the next time.
2nd- Now on to the job. Let's see, I am on my 3rd boss since I started there. The first one was fired 3 weeks after I started, then the 2nd one came in July, only to leave in September due to a health problem. The 3rd is a lady who came from corporate was the trainer for the company and she's pretty knowledgeable. She has been helpful, but of course there were more changes. I inherited someone else's desk that decided to transfer to another division. I inherited a NIGHTMARE of work that I am still trying to sort out and it's been over 6 weeks since she left. Then I found out 3 days ago that they are restructuring again and that now I won't be reporting to the guy that I was reporting to- who I have really liked and worked well with- but to the other manager, who I can't stand. Things are in constant motion there...it's a stressful environment- so much so that about a month ago I ended up in the hospital with contractions. The Dr. threatened bed rest, but I told her I couldn't do that...I wasn't working there long enough to be entitled to FMLA. So she wrote me a note dictating that I am only allowed to work 8 hrs per day for the duration of the pregnancy. So now I am working 7:30 to 4 pm- I love the hours they are what I have always wanted to work- but it's only temporary. The one good thing is that I am less stressed just knowing that I have my work schedule guaranteed by the Dr's note. And it's not like I'm working less than 40 hrs....so they can't say that I am not earning my paycheck. Prior to this note, I was working a consistent 50-55 hr week and it was only getting worse with the holiday rush approaching. So it was a Godsend that I got that Dr's note. Everything happens for a reason. Now I pray that I can find another job after the baby comes that has more normal hours. I know that the work schedule that they expect is unreasonable with a baby. Especially since I intend to nurse him for as long as I can. The economy is so terrible these days, it will be a daunting task to find new employment. But I will still keep my eyes open, because the job won't come to me- I learned that from working at the other place. I am glad to be out of there....I can't believe it's been almost a year. It's been about a year since I got the insulting jar of M&Ms as the corporate holiday gift too. You know I still have that jar, and some of the M&M's are in there...I keep it to remind me of how bad a job could be. As hard as I work at this new place, I at least have a real function there- what I do makes a difference. It's a different vibe. I am still a cog in the machine..but this machine is more efficient and better than that other one. Hey, at least we got a Turkey for Thanksgiving- it was only 11 1/2 lbs- but it was the gesture that counts.
Speaking of Thanksgiving- 2008 marked the first time that I hosted Thanksgiving in my home. I have been married for 10 years and this was the first holiday that I have done myself. It turned out pretty nice. We were 10 people all together- my in laws, my parents, and my sister, brother in law and niece and nephew. Other than the stress of cleanup- which my house is STILL not perfect over a week afterwards...it was a success. I may be inclined to do it again in the future..just not the immediate future- my little baby boy will be a handful for a little while and it may not be possible to do it. We will have to wait and see.
So, that's the story for now. I promise to get on here more often so I can chronicle how I feel being pregnant, and other stuff that happens.
That's it and that's all for now....
Sunday, September 21, 2008
19 weeks....
Well, I had my 2nd trimester ultrasound on Friday and to my surprise and shock.....
It has taken a couple of days to get used to the idea...I was so positive that it would be a girl, I had a name picked for a girl, and a pretty pink theme for the nursery too...Oh well, I have to start over again now...but it's much harder b/c it's much harder to choose for boys from names to themes...it's just plain difficult. Hubby and I can't agree on anything at all...so this is going to be a LONG road for me....
The plus side is that the baby looked healthy and normal in the ultrasound, I seem to be doing well, all of my stuff is normal, so that's really the most important thing. And I have been feeling a little bit better too (although I still don't sleep 100% well.)
OK back to my normal color..lol... I wanted to give an update on A. He called me last week to see how I was doing, to brag about his promotion at work, and to remind me that the 2 year anniversary of that infamous Friday night was coming up. ( It is actually today to be exact.) I think he is reminiscing about that whole thing for whatever reason. I flat out asked him if he and B had been fighting, and he denied it..but I know better. He only talks to me about that night when he is on the rocks with her. Guaranteed they are having problems again and I would not be surprised if he was stepping out on her with some other chick (probably his assistant, that suits his style- he likes being in the power position.) I find it completely pathetic that he tried to rekindle that memory with me, especially since I have spent 2 years trying to forget it and recover from the hurt and shame that he caused me. I moved on with my life...why can't he do the same thing? Shell says that it's the best thing that he moved away b.c he would have destroyed my entire life if he had stayed here...he is complete poison...
Anyways,,,
That's it and that's all for now.... I'm gonna be a MOMMY!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY! :)
It has taken a couple of days to get used to the idea...I was so positive that it would be a girl, I had a name picked for a girl, and a pretty pink theme for the nursery too...Oh well, I have to start over again now...but it's much harder b/c it's much harder to choose for boys from names to themes...it's just plain difficult. Hubby and I can't agree on anything at all...so this is going to be a LONG road for me....
The plus side is that the baby looked healthy and normal in the ultrasound, I seem to be doing well, all of my stuff is normal, so that's really the most important thing. And I have been feeling a little bit better too (although I still don't sleep 100% well.)
OK back to my normal color..lol... I wanted to give an update on A. He called me last week to see how I was doing, to brag about his promotion at work, and to remind me that the 2 year anniversary of that infamous Friday night was coming up. ( It is actually today to be exact.) I think he is reminiscing about that whole thing for whatever reason. I flat out asked him if he and B had been fighting, and he denied it..but I know better. He only talks to me about that night when he is on the rocks with her. Guaranteed they are having problems again and I would not be surprised if he was stepping out on her with some other chick (probably his assistant, that suits his style- he likes being in the power position.) I find it completely pathetic that he tried to rekindle that memory with me, especially since I have spent 2 years trying to forget it and recover from the hurt and shame that he caused me. I moved on with my life...why can't he do the same thing? Shell says that it's the best thing that he moved away b.c he would have destroyed my entire life if he had stayed here...he is complete poison...
Anyways,,,
That's it and that's all for now.... I'm gonna be a MOMMY!!! YAYAYAYAYAYAY! :)
Saturday, August 30, 2008
16 weeks today
It' s been a few months since I have written anything. I have intended to, but as they say... the road is paved with good intentions. I guess this will be an update of the events of my pregnancy up to this point. I am 16 weeks today- I am solidly in my 2nd trimester and am not having the sickness like in the beginning. Months 1 and 2 and half of 3 were pretty brutal. 24 hours a day of morning sickness, which I have renamed ALL DAY sickness. The nausea was so bad that I got no relief even as I slept. I would be woken up in the middle of the night to a roiling tummy full of acid and be able to nothing other than eat crackers and dry heave. There is nothing worse than plain nausea, because at least if you could throw up it would be some sort of relief of the symptoms of nausea, but I am not one to throw up easily. In fact, I think I only threw up once the entire pregnancy so far, and that is because of a smell I encountered in the garbage can that was so revolting it turned my stomach inside out. I endured a constant bad taste in my mouth for a couple weeks, constant acid churning in my stomach, breast tenderness like I have NEVER experienced in my life, to the point where I had to wear a bra 24/7 for about 2 months. The symptoms of pregnancy have been no picnic for me indeed. As of now, my current complaints are smell sensitivity, where everything smells gross to me, even foods I previously liked, and even the smell of fabric softener like Snuggle, is so pungent to me that I can taste it and it makes me gag. I still wake up at night a couple of times to pee, and of course after that I am no longer able to fall back asleep. There was one day this week that I woke up at 1:15 am and stayed up until about 4 am, and then had to get up for the day at 5 am to go to work. Needless to say I was a zombie that day. In fact, this morning I woke at 3:15 to pee, and was soo restless that I finally got up and 4:30 am and got on the computer to check email. I figured I would be better off using the time to get something accomplished, so that's what I did.
As for my health, I am doing well, I have gained a lot of weight about 20 lbs since I found out I was preggo, that is on top of already having gained 20 lbs from the LA Weight Loss days...so I am already 40 lbs in the hole and look it. I keep saying how the heck do people always think pregnant women are beautiful? Not this preggo woman...I think I am the most hideous one ever, My skin has been hijacked by hormonal acne eruptions that I can't get a handle on b/c I can't even use my Proactiv anymore. It's truly tragic... lol
The baby of course is doing well. I will find out the sex on 9/19 with my ultrasound appt. I was at the Dr's the other day and I got to hear the heartbeat. It was a good, strong heartbeat, and the previous ultrasounds I had were good. The Dr tells me everything looks great. I endure all the unpleasantness just so I can know that one fact. All I want is a healthy, happy, beautiful baby. I am looking forward to seeing this little one soon.
After much contemplation and trepidation, I told work about my pregnancy. I felt it better to tell them sooner rather than later so that they are well aware of my situation and my needs to leave for Dr's appt, etc. I also wanted to make sure that they were well aware that they had to watch my stress level. So far they haven't really done that, as they have still stressed me to the max, but the thing is, I am allowed to freak and and lash out more and I don't get penalized for it. So that's a plus. ;)
Other than that, there is not much to say, other than I am starting to allow people to know about the pregnancy. All of my friends know, a majority of the family knows. A&B know, and B has insisted that she will travel here for my baby shower whenever I have it scheduled. My mother in law has insisted on planning the fete herself, and although I have concerns over that, it's a relief to my mom, who has no money at all to throw the shower, since my dad is still unemployed. That's a story for another time though. I don't have the energy to go into that situation in detail.
So that's it and that's all for now..... ;)
As for my health, I am doing well, I have gained a lot of weight about 20 lbs since I found out I was preggo, that is on top of already having gained 20 lbs from the LA Weight Loss days...so I am already 40 lbs in the hole and look it. I keep saying how the heck do people always think pregnant women are beautiful? Not this preggo woman...I think I am the most hideous one ever, My skin has been hijacked by hormonal acne eruptions that I can't get a handle on b/c I can't even use my Proactiv anymore. It's truly tragic... lol
The baby of course is doing well. I will find out the sex on 9/19 with my ultrasound appt. I was at the Dr's the other day and I got to hear the heartbeat. It was a good, strong heartbeat, and the previous ultrasounds I had were good. The Dr tells me everything looks great. I endure all the unpleasantness just so I can know that one fact. All I want is a healthy, happy, beautiful baby. I am looking forward to seeing this little one soon.
After much contemplation and trepidation, I told work about my pregnancy. I felt it better to tell them sooner rather than later so that they are well aware of my situation and my needs to leave for Dr's appt, etc. I also wanted to make sure that they were well aware that they had to watch my stress level. So far they haven't really done that, as they have still stressed me to the max, but the thing is, I am allowed to freak and and lash out more and I don't get penalized for it. So that's a plus. ;)
Other than that, there is not much to say, other than I am starting to allow people to know about the pregnancy. All of my friends know, a majority of the family knows. A&B know, and B has insisted that she will travel here for my baby shower whenever I have it scheduled. My mother in law has insisted on planning the fete herself, and although I have concerns over that, it's a relief to my mom, who has no money at all to throw the shower, since my dad is still unemployed. That's a story for another time though. I don't have the energy to go into that situation in detail.
So that's it and that's all for now..... ;)
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